Excerpts from: Al Marahiya – From Veneration towards Mystery by Eleazar Harash

Excerpts from: Al Marahiya – From Veneration towards Mystery

by Eleazar Harash

And He shall bow His head

I shall always seek Him and I shall always find Him. When I find Him, He will conceal Himself, but I shall still seek Him. I shall continue to seek Him, until I find Him again. And when He conceals Himself again, I shall stop seeking Him and I shall merge with Him. And then I shall say to Him: ‘’Do You see, that I found You?’’ And He shall bow His head, because I sought, I knew and I merged.

Through my perseverance I gave birth to Him

I found that the Way towards my Master passes through me. I found that I must pass through myself and to prepare myself for Him. The more I persevered, the more I mastered myself and the more I conquered myself, the more He appeared, the more He mastered me, the more He conquered me. Through my perseverance I gave birth to Him. Through my mastering I illuminated Him. Through my conquering I accepted Him as my Master. And because He already lives in me, I am already a Master of myself.

Like a bird I perched on His shoulder

I sought Him as a bird. And in this way He allowed me to perch on His shoulder. And when I landed on His shoulder, I saw the worlds in the right way. And now I came to know that my heart has landed on His shoulder and that this is the only thing I have wanted. And in this way I came to know that the worlds are merely a way, and He is my Home. What is His shoulder? This is His Ancient Reason, the Reason before the Universe. Now I too, have a small part of this Reason and this is why wherever I go, I am always flying towards Him.

The chaos did not know what striving was

I walked a long way. I wore out my feet. I illuminated my hands. I enlightened my eyes. I turned my heart white. And in the end, He revealed Himself to me. Now I know Who I am seeking. Now I know what striving is. And my striving saw that towards it, the most ancient elemental force took aim – chaos – in order to stop my striving. But I felt compassion towards this chaos, because it apparently did not know what striving was. It was only a force, and my striving was a Fiery Sword, which pierced its heart. And in this way I reached to my Master, and chaos did not understand what had happened.

Al Marahiya – The Elevating Essence

There is one thing, which always leads to the Master. This thing leads the disciple to the Heart of their Master, then to the Secret of their Master, and then to His Mystery. This thing is the praying-loyalty, the humble loyalty, the spiritual loyalty. In Anciency this was called Al Marahiya – The Elevating Essence.

He is the Original Sound

I have travelled for years, I have travelled for centuries, I have travelled for millennia, and it is always Him I find. After I find Him, I seek Him again. And this will continue until I disappear into Him, because I wish that only He resounds, and not me. Because He is the Primordial Sound, the Original Sound, and I am the seeking sound.

I am not seeking anything anymore, but I only live

When I seek Him, I seek and I find Him. When I find Him, I lose Him. And I know that I must seek Him once again. There will come a day when I will not seek Him, as there will be no seeker, because He will have engulfed me, and I will have found Him. We will have become one whole. We will have become one Magnificent Unity. Since I have entered into this Unity, I am no longer seeking anything, but I only live.

He became my Source

I live in Him, because many times I have died for Him. And the more I died, I died, and in this way, in my dying, I came to know Him more and more. And the more I came to know Him, the more I brought Him to life in myself. Now I am more alive than death and more alive than life, because He became my Source.

Great Love and Great Immutability

Towards your Master You can have only two approaches: Great Love and Great Immutability. Great Love in all circumstances and Great Immutability in all states – all of this is governed by Love and happens gradually. There will come a day, from this Love, self-knowledge shall rise, and from this Immutability, the merging shall rise.

Great Trust and Great Not-Knowing

Walk towards your Master with perseverance and diligence. And let Him act in the way that He sees is good. Towards your Master you must act with Great Trust and with Great Not-Knowing. What is Trust? – A Secret Unity. What is Not-Knowing? – It is your Non-Understanding and the power of His acting, because only He knows how to act and how not to act. This is why this Not-Knowing was called Atahara – Maturity – by the Sages.

The seeker is a peculiar being

We are born to find our Master. But today, only seekers are able to find Him. Who is a seeker? The seeker is a peculiar being, a peculiar Soul. They are a combination of willpower, perseverance and immutability. Willpower leads them, perseverance teaches them, and in immutability is concealed the Merging.

I must go beyond the trial

When I sought my Master for a long time, there came a day, a day of a mighty trial. I knew that I must go beyond the trial. And I chose to think constantly only of my Master. And in this way the trial grew smaller and smaller, and in the end it was extinguished. And then only He rose. He is my only Boundlessness and I seek nothing else.

He has waited for all my efforts

I sought Him everywhere and in everything. I sought Him in this world and I sought Him in the otherworld. I sought Him in books, I sought Him in my thoughts too. I sought Him in my prayers and in my contemplations. And with all of this, I did not find Him. But when He granted me His Love, I discovered Him and I came to know Him. He has waited for all my efforts and perseverance, so that He can grant me His Love.

Perception is the Divine Eye

I walked towards my Master for a long time and I suffered for a long time. And finally, I discovered why I suffer and why suffering is a treasure. I suffered, because I was unable to perceive the Ancient Completeness of His Sublime Love. But this peculiar suffering shaped my perception. And now I see only Him and nothing else, because perception is a Divine Eye. And suffering turned out to be its sculptor and what blessed it.

Many ways lead to the Master

There are many ways, which lead to the Master. In all these ways, one thing is important, and that is effort – the effort that never gives up. With some people, the effort is focused in the prayer, with others – in loyalty, with a third kind of people – in serving, with a fourth kind – in constant reflection on the Master, with a fifth kind – it is in Love, with a sixth kind – it is in love towards Truth, and so on. And when all these efforts ripen, they shall come to know the Master through one specific Mystical experience.

The biggest gift of life

Do you know what the biggest gift of life is? The biggest gift of life is to have a Master. To have a Master, it is an Ancient Union, an Agreement. To have a Master, it is the old way, which must be walked in a new way. To have a Master, it is a High form of Favour, because the Master Himself has chosen to descend in certain closeness to you.

The Master is the Elixir of the Boundlessness

They ask me: ‘’What do you compare your Master to?’’ I say: I cannot compare Him to life, because the Master is dearer than life. Death is close and marvellous to me, and even though it gives me freedom, I cannot compare it to my Master. The Heavens are magnificent, but they are only the Feet of my Master, they are foothills. I can only compare my Master to the Boundlessness, but I shall never trade Him for the Boundlessness, because the Master is the Elixir of the Boundlessness.

In hell we come to know our True Way

After I passed through many trials, today I can say that heaven no longer confuses me, the skies no longer hinder me, hell is pleasant to me, because in it I came to know my Master. And if today hell comes upon me once again, I shall say to it: I already know that you are a concealed friend of mine. I say: Hell is a sacred place, in which we come to know our True Way towards our Master.

Thoughts, feelings and acts of Freedom

You must overcome yourself. You must overcome your thoughts, feelings and acts. And when you overcome them, then the Master will appear. And then you will once again have thoughts, feelings and acts, but they will not be of the world. They will be of Freedom, of the Boundlessness and of the Mystery.